Something else I wanted to write down soon: 2022-2026 was a stint of 3 different loves, one long from before which ended in 2022, and two shorts since 2022. I think in general I am guaranteed to do more for the other person, and I will always love them more than they love me. The difficulty in finding a good partner is compounded by the inescapable reality that I am cripplingly introverted. And relationships should not be transactional, but it does suck and wears on me when I do infact do more than the other person, or when they forget about me.
The most recent one ended multiple times, and I foolishly dragged at her heels. It sucked and was actually pretty heartbreaking.
I knew OKC was done; that was the golden standard, but died. Today I looked into new dating websites. Turns out, sites are ded and it's all Tinder clones, which all suck. Why isn't there a audio personals site, or even video? Aside from ensuring failure to prolong usage: The Tinder model is junk because you can't get to know somebody from a blurb, which is why OKC was so successful: People put effort into creating a digital facsimile of themselves in order to match along a wide variety of criteria. Just as customised MySpace changed to crappy Phazonbook, so did many other things with the advent of smartphone culture, which made people so dumb. What baffles me is that people continue to accept it all as if it's normal and okay. Well, it's not, and people are retarded. Blessedly, there are still many methods outside of the populous normalcool hubs where one may find good people. I just feel bad for the poor fools who believe they are stuck with monopolised junk.
Which reminds, me, I got my first smartphone ever in the year of Lord Rama, 2026, because basically I would have died without it. After attempting to navigate it, I have come to the conclusion which I have long suspected: It is completely disposable and terrible. I loathe using it, and typing on it makes me want to cut my fingers off. Every single program - pardon, APPLICATION APP - is awfully designed. Now I see why so many modern websites suck now, because they are just smartphone applications through a browser. File navigation, settings, everything is not standardized and just awful on this accursed playskool toy. It is somehow worse than Windows! I plan to rid myself of that garbage as soon as humanly possible and return to a feature phone. At most, the tinytablet will remain a tool to be shoved in a drawer for the occasional once-yearly utility like the feature phones always did. I'd rather have the original Motorola Razr.
